In search for an answer....

Yesterday was the last day in the national schools bowling tournament.Went totally crazy,did not focus only bowled an average of 140.Now after the tournament,I reflect:should i stay in the bowling team at all,should i deserve the place in the team,where's my interest in bowling.It seemed that i've lost interest in this sport,i did not turn up 4 enough training.Whether my place should be given to one who's more enthu than me.I think that my lost in interest is caused by the teacher,there was simply no room for improvement.The training we had(or the lack of it) already set our place in the tournament,somewhere near the bottom.Where's the drills that almost killed me during my secondary schools days,where's our physical training,where's our knee-down and foulline practises to improve our release.It's simply not present,how u expect us to improve,how do u expect a 4th from us,when we do not have a quality training regime.It's simply not possible.We're not bad bowlers,we simply did not got drilled enough,we were far too casual in the training.Our mental is also very weak.Note i used the word "our".I went into the tournament in search for an answer,it seemed that i ended up with more questions with answers.

Econs test today,flunged it.It would be the 1st time in my life that i've failed econs.Math test tomorrow,no hope.I was had a belief,do not enter a battle withour any confidence.Well i do not have any,so should i go for the test?